Friday, February 27, 2004
I suppose I'd better introduce myself. It'd make good sense. The first thing you should know about me, even before my name, is the fact that I make no sense. Ever.
The second thing you should probably know is my name. That just happens to be Stacey. It's such a common name if you ask me. Ah well. I prefer to be called Stace. Much less formal, doesn't make me feel as though I'm in trouble with my mum.
I was born on July 3rd 1986. That makes me 17 and a cancer. I dunno what that means, I'm not really into star signs. Though I have to admit It is interesting to read what those quacks have to say about me, lol.
I guess I'm starting this blog thing because I need somewhere to put all the crap I'm thinking about. I mean, I know I have my diary. Well, like 3 of them. But typing is way much more fun than plain old writing nowadays. It's easier, and there's less chance of someone taking a peek when I don't want em to.
I love a lot of people. I get attatched to them way too easily, I'm a fool. But oh well, because love really is the most important thing in life, along with happiness. My friends are the most important thing in the world to me. Especially Nadia, Zoe and Charlie. I consider those three as my best friends in the world.
Being bisexual is hard. I've had huge crushes on some of my really close friends in the past, especially in the last few months. First of all it was Nadz. I got really close to her really fast, because she was here for me when I really needed her. I started falling for her, and before I knew it I was so in love with her, at least I thought I was. I even wrote a letter to her telling her how I felt. Anyways, it turned out to be more like infatuation, and I don't know why, but I went off her soon after. Then It was Charlie. I got really close to her, just like with Nadz, and I think I was actually in love with her. I've got a whole diary about that. I couldn't keep my feelings locked up, but I couldn't tell Charlie because I knew that even though she was bi too (most of my close friends are, it makes for fun nights out :P), she would never even think of being with me, or even doing anything with me. Apparently because we're "too close", but I just think that was her way of saying she didn't find me remotely attractive. Then Charlie got engaged to Paul, a guy who I went out with for just about a day, and a guy who I really don't consider as being anywhere near good enough for her. I was absolutely devastated. I cried and cried...and yeah, cried some more. Anyways, I got over it eventually, and even though I still think she's a bit gorgeous, that thing's over now.
And here we are again, back to the beginning, and back to Nadz. It turns out I'm still in love with her, as much as ever. Somewhere inside I've always known it, but It's hard to admit you love someone when they don't feel the same towards you. She has this "thing". SO many people are either in love with her or extremely attracted to her. It's crazy. I know she's beautiful, nobody can deny that, but she can be a *bitch*! And She'll admit it too, she hates it about herself. She's never been a bitch to me, though. She just can't make up her mind about how she feels, and people tend to get hurt because of that, especially Zoe. That makes me kinda sad because Zoe's a bloody great person. (Not to mention Sexy as hell! :P) Anyway it's all OK because I'm happy being really close friends with Nadz. She has a love interest right now, a girl called Loz, who's pretty cool, so I have no chance. Lol, I love her so much and you know how it is, just wanting her to be happy. She's all the way in Zimbabwe right now, she has family over there, and she won't be back till a week on Sunday :( Really really miss her.
I should mention that I have a boyfriend. He's the best friend of my last boyfriend. You'd think that'd be awkward, but it's cool. He likes me a whole lot and I like him a whole lot too, but I feel bad because, ya know. Feelings for other people and all... His name is Ash and he's just lovely. And so are his parents. And you know what else? Just to add to everything I think I'm developing feelings for Nadz's ex boyfriend Kenny, and I am starting to get pretty damn attracted to Zoe. Yeah, I know. Feelings suck.
The second thing you should probably know is my name. That just happens to be Stacey. It's such a common name if you ask me. Ah well. I prefer to be called Stace. Much less formal, doesn't make me feel as though I'm in trouble with my mum.
I was born on July 3rd 1986. That makes me 17 and a cancer. I dunno what that means, I'm not really into star signs. Though I have to admit It is interesting to read what those quacks have to say about me, lol.
I guess I'm starting this blog thing because I need somewhere to put all the crap I'm thinking about. I mean, I know I have my diary. Well, like 3 of them. But typing is way much more fun than plain old writing nowadays. It's easier, and there's less chance of someone taking a peek when I don't want em to.
I love a lot of people. I get attatched to them way too easily, I'm a fool. But oh well, because love really is the most important thing in life, along with happiness. My friends are the most important thing in the world to me. Especially Nadia, Zoe and Charlie. I consider those three as my best friends in the world.
Being bisexual is hard. I've had huge crushes on some of my really close friends in the past, especially in the last few months. First of all it was Nadz. I got really close to her really fast, because she was here for me when I really needed her. I started falling for her, and before I knew it I was so in love with her, at least I thought I was. I even wrote a letter to her telling her how I felt. Anyways, it turned out to be more like infatuation, and I don't know why, but I went off her soon after. Then It was Charlie. I got really close to her, just like with Nadz, and I think I was actually in love with her. I've got a whole diary about that. I couldn't keep my feelings locked up, but I couldn't tell Charlie because I knew that even though she was bi too (most of my close friends are, it makes for fun nights out :P), she would never even think of being with me, or even doing anything with me. Apparently because we're "too close", but I just think that was her way of saying she didn't find me remotely attractive. Then Charlie got engaged to Paul, a guy who I went out with for just about a day, and a guy who I really don't consider as being anywhere near good enough for her. I was absolutely devastated. I cried and cried...and yeah, cried some more. Anyways, I got over it eventually, and even though I still think she's a bit gorgeous, that thing's over now.
And here we are again, back to the beginning, and back to Nadz. It turns out I'm still in love with her, as much as ever. Somewhere inside I've always known it, but It's hard to admit you love someone when they don't feel the same towards you. She has this "thing". SO many people are either in love with her or extremely attracted to her. It's crazy. I know she's beautiful, nobody can deny that, but she can be a *bitch*! And She'll admit it too, she hates it about herself. She's never been a bitch to me, though. She just can't make up her mind about how she feels, and people tend to get hurt because of that, especially Zoe. That makes me kinda sad because Zoe's a bloody great person. (Not to mention Sexy as hell! :P) Anyway it's all OK because I'm happy being really close friends with Nadz. She has a love interest right now, a girl called Loz, who's pretty cool, so I have no chance. Lol, I love her so much and you know how it is, just wanting her to be happy. She's all the way in Zimbabwe right now, she has family over there, and she won't be back till a week on Sunday :( Really really miss her.
I should mention that I have a boyfriend. He's the best friend of my last boyfriend. You'd think that'd be awkward, but it's cool. He likes me a whole lot and I like him a whole lot too, but I feel bad because, ya know. Feelings for other people and all... His name is Ash and he's just lovely. And so are his parents. And you know what else? Just to add to everything I think I'm developing feelings for Nadz's ex boyfriend Kenny, and I am starting to get pretty damn attracted to Zoe. Yeah, I know. Feelings suck.
